Sounds a bit like an oxymoron! However bear with me for a moment because when you view something from a different perspective. The insight will come through.

I have experienced depression; the dark night of the soul, when nothing but nothing seems to work, all the old ways of behaving and places that bought some joy and relief were no longer available. A feeling of the world disintegrating before my eyes, where nothing I grabbed hold of remained mine. The physical world felt and looked like shattered glass.

The usual mirrors of laughter and fun, were behind Another wall out of reach, I felt like they were no longer available to me. Gone were the days of meeting up with old friends, chatting, sharing jokes and good shopping.

I could no longer do things and make things "happen" like I had in the past. It wasn't that getting out of bed was difficult, but knowing what to do next.

I choose deliberately not to take medication. I did not want to dull the "pain" I did not want to experience any more avoidance So I sat and waited and felt, and didn't try to be something I wasn't. No pretense of happy joyful fun. I think this is what people call navel gazing. I did not try to cover up what was happening with the insidious energy of positive thinking

Then I discovered how frightened I was of literally everything! That came as a bit of a shock! Because I had been fairly gung ho in my past life

So what was stopping me now? It seemed I had to completely let go of my story; that being everything I thought I was All the roles and identifications As this began to happen without judgment or analysis, I became lighter in my being. I started to see clearer. My experiences began to open to the non physical dimensions I kept my mind open and choose life

It wasn't that the thought of suicide didn't enter my mind But I choose to tell my soul I wanted to know its very being and to live within the realms of its guidance and understanding. Because clearly what I'd been doing had not really worked out!

I learned to breathe! The simple breathe of life, deep into my soul. The love of which responded with a communication unmistakable to my mind

The simple breathe

I dare you to walk away from suicide, to breathe!

Deep deep breathing, this comes to you with such love. Breathing will take you out of the numbness It is all right to feel! One breath at a time!

This was my way out of the super conflict I found myself in Depression is not caused by body chemistry. The body responds to the depression and in an attempt to feel better changes

Depression is a box of paradoxes, and the point you choose to breathe into will take you to the release of yet another layer of the tightly bound energetic thought systems of expectation you can find yourself in

Start breathing and stop hyper ventilating Surrender and breathe

Let something new happen!

Margo Knox

About the Author

Margo Knox is a coach in the field of awakening The practical workbook "The 7 Doors, Keys to Your Full Potential" is available online at http://www.margoknox.com